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i'm still alive. healthy. tan. stressed out. alive. :)
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[20 Jan 2005|03:55pm] |
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my entries are going to be friends only again. so remind me if i need to add you or remove you from my friends list, ok? i am not going to change the list i have now, just need to know if i should update it at all. i've been gone a long time so i am out of it.
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[04 Sep 2004|12:53pm] |
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This isn't Eire, but I'm allowed to post in proxy.
She just told me to tell you all that she suffered a tragic loss and doesn't know when she'll be returning.
Keep her in your thoughts and prayers.
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[08 Apr 2004|04:20pm] |
COMPUTER BROKEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at a friend's house updating. no computer. nada. totally broken and no access.
anyway, i am still alive. barely hanging on. but whatever.
i thought life couldn't get much worse (worst week of my fucking life)....but it did. computer broken and blah.
hope everyone is ok. don't know when i'll be around, but whatever.
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[27 Feb 2004|01:26pm] |
Non curo. Si metrum non habet, non est poema.
"I don't care. If it doesn't rhyme, it isn't
a poem."
You are a type A personality. You like bright
things, you don't call in sick to work, and you
have devastating opinions about art.
Which Weird Latin Phrase Are You?
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[26 Feb 2004|02:09pm] |
i just dropped roughly half of my friends list. i had to do it.
the people left either: have known me a long time on lj, are real life friends, or make comments regularly. basically i want to keep people on my list who i know CARE about me.
if i dropped you, and IF, IN FACT, you DO actually give a shit about what i say in this here journal...let me know. i'll gladly add you back. (if i kept you on the list, and you really don't care to be here, do tell me!)
otherwise, most people read my sexy journal anyway. this is just where i talk about my kids and complain and cry most of the time. most people would rather not read that crap!
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inspired by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) n1blueye |
[09 Feb 2004|06:37pm] |
i did this Belief-O-Matic quiz (http://beliefnet.com/story/76/story_7665_1.html) over a year ago. some things have changd, but my #1 is the same.
1. Mahayana Buddhism (100%)
2. Neo-Pagan (98%)
3. New Age (87%)
4. Hinduism (86%)
5. Jainism (81%)
6. Unitarian Universalism (79%)
7. Sikhism (77%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (77%)
9. Liberal Quakers (75%)
10. Taoism (62%)
11. Scientology (58%)
12. Reform Judaism (56%)
13. New Thought (55%)
14. Bahá'í Faith (51%)
15. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (50%)
16. Orthodox Judaism (47%)
17. Orthodox Quaker (47%)
18. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (43%)
19. Secular Humanism (40%)
20. Islam (37%)
21. Seventh Day Adventist (25%)
22. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (22%)
23. Jehovah's Witness (22%)
24. Nontheist (21%)
25. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (19%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (17%)
27. Roman Catholic (17%)
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[10 Jan 2004|05:55am] |
i just removed a lot of people from my friends list. if you are one of the people, and you would like to be put back on, let me know. :)
this is my much more private journal, and i intend to only have friends listed who still read my journal (maybe even a comment here or there?) i consider everyone on my friends list here a friend. i love you guys.
i will be condensing it again in the near future. if you want to stay (and you are someone i don't talk to very often), let me know.
i haven't removed anyone from this list in a long time. just something i had to do. have to make my private life a little more private.
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[04 Jan 2004|03:34pm] |
i feel much better. i took a little nap, cleansed myself of stomach pain.
now i'm going to pick up my babies from the motherinlaw. i'll be back soon, smiling.
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[30 Dec 2003|09:12pm] |
after the kids' bath, my 4 year old son said to his 3 year old sister,
"your penis looks like a butt."
how hillarious is that!
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[29 Dec 2003|08:14pm] |
having boston and nolan off school is CRAZY. i have had the children nonstop for i don't know how many days now. i am losing my mind.
so i am brainfried. blurrybrained. fuzzzzy. hope everyone is well. when i remember my name again i'll update. :)
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[26 Dec 2003|11:10pm] |
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what is the number one thing mothers forget to do?
-urinate.
yup. that would be my guess.
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[19 Dec 2003|02:51pm] |
i am tired. SO SLEEPY! it's only 2:50 (?) and i am about to fall asleep sitting up. the neighbor boy is over, so i really can't jump on the couch and nap. fuck.
on a positive note, mixie is getting along better with the new cat, mikey. slowly but surely. mikey is a little brat and likes to run outside at any opportunity. either he was an outdoor cat before i adopted him, or he was just trained to shit and piss outdoors. he is the little brat who thinks he can jump up on my table and eat MY food! he's a freak (fits right in!). i love him. he's gorgeous and very very sweet. he even lets allee and nolan "manhandle" him any time they feel the urge.
you're getting sleeeeeeeeeeeepy. zzz
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[19 Dec 2003|02:22pm] |
i had a great IM conversation with my friend O. we talked about many things, but i had to save some of the things i said about relationships, etc.
thoughts important to reflect upon:
i won't be the "subby" to anyone not totally in love with me.
i dont like to label myself so i dont know how poly i am. i think my degree of poly depends on who i am with, partially. and also, well....i think for me it is important to know that i can love AND be loved wholly fully and exclusively BEFORE venturing out and including others. he and i are open to involving others in our relationship at some point. i think that at the beginning it is a good chance to really get to know the other person. and well... i am worthy of being someone's one and only. until we have settled into that truly fully faithfully....its good to keep our love between us. but there is a lot of room for us to grow, no doubt.
i try to cut it down to something simple: i cheated on my husband. i made promises i couldn't keep. part of the reason was because i didn't feel like i could be 100% ME with him. i felt embarrassed or ashamed, etc....in this relationship i promise to be 100% ME at all times. honest about it and not ashamed. he promises me the same....and we both want the other person to be involved in all things sexual. so if that means we end up in orgies or having a girlfriend or whatever strange bizarre thing either of us could imagine, it will be something we do together, honestly and openly.
i will not betray another person i love. and there are sacrifices i am willing to make, even if they are only symbolic. i watched my ex break. he almost deserved it. but i broke his heart. single handedly. and no matter what an ass he is, i said i loved him. and no matter what he did, i made MYSELF more important than our relationship. and that selfishness is NOT what marriage is. you can't count on someone not finding out. so it (cheating) is this decision: "i am deciding to break the heart of the person i promised i would love forever." its so sad. we all have such needs and desires. and it's hard to weigh everything. i refuse to hurt another the way i hurt him. it would kill me if i did it again. in my opinion, honest is the only way to be , if you really want to continue to love *yourself*.
edit: (for the record, these are just my random relationship ramblings i spurted. anything stated above is merely a goal for me and my present relationship has no rigid rules or expectations outside of honesty.)
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[19 Dec 2003|01:50pm] |
unreal: the way the memories blur.
recollections too perfect to store
in me: someone so imperfect.
they live on their own out there,
as if someone new were created to live them.
the perfect being: our memories walking this earth.
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[19 Dec 2003|01:47pm] |
so new to me is this
love. this love thing.
i love
this love. i don't have to hold onto
too tightly. i
grip your hand loosely. i know
you won't let go.
i don't worry. really,
no. i know you'll be here holding me
when i wake up. as far apart
as we need to be. you're still just as close
when my eyes open.
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[15 Dec 2003|12:45pm] |
outside it is beautiful. wind blows through the trees. sun shines,
my new cat mikey sits on the window sill cleaning himself.
my talk with my therapist today went really well.
life is great.
everything should feel great.
i would do next to anything to be out of california right now.
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[14 Dec 2003|08:29pm] |
Your phase is WOOD. You have a need to always be
growing and adapting to your environment. Your
life is a quest to discover who you really are.
This is your greatest strength, but it can also
be your greatest weakness if you remain in an
environment that lacks challenges. Pick a
career which offers stimulation but also allows
for growth. You are good at overcoming
situations that have become stagnant. You tend
to produce things that are active and develop
quickly (but sometimes they burn out soon).
Which one of the Five Phases of Chinese cosmology are you correlated with?
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